Ending and Beginning

As 2020 comes to an end, and I'm thinking of 2021's word of the year that promotes growth in myself, I feel a little discouraged because 2020's word which was organize was kind of a bust. So this year..I mean next year's word has to be powerful, encouraging, and do-able. As I write this, I'm still thinking about what my word will be. Maybe it will come to me by the end of this, maybe it'll come to me next month. I literally have no expectations. In this year, 2020, which was and still is filled with uncertainty, worry, and a new norm that we would like to reverse, I am reminded of how little I actually need. It's not about the shopping, getting my nails are hair done, or going out to dinner, among a million other things but these are some of the vain pleasures I enjoyed although rarely. It's taught me to rely on my family, faith, and to be honest- common sense. It's amazing how many don't have that last one. It's taught me to be more patient (although there are still days where my littles test it!!), it's taught me how to stretch my groceries, It's made me get up and move which is an important one! I was so tired of being stuck inside and needed an outlet. That outlet I found in my neighbors and by getting up before the sun to sweat and work out with a great group of ladies. It taught me to try new things and go to new places around my state. Other things that have happened in the year 2020- My children have become addicted to Fort Nite, lost teeth, started sleeping in a big girl bed -never mind that daddy or I have to join her in that bed-, started school, made a compost, made a garden, began landscaping in the backyard, had carpal tunnel surgery, bought a vehicle, kept up with our oil changes, taught 2/3 of the tribe to do their own laundry, binged on netflix, became obsessed with baby yoda, tried veganism, stopped watching our potty mouths (this needs to be rectified), actually decorated the house for christmas, bought a new tv, made the kids go on several hikes, created paths in the woods behind our house, met new neighbors, swam a lot, complained more, drank even more. This list was shortened because I dont want you to be bored. 2021, I have no expectations. One thing that I pride myself in, is letting things be as they will be. I am who I am, I like what I like, I do what I do. This is me. This is who I am and the people I surround myself with help me to grow, they help to educate me, they help to build me up and bring me back down when I need to, they make me laugh, they are there when I need to cry, they challenge me. I have found that the true people that want to be in your circle, will be there. You should never have to beg someone for friendship. So although my 2020 word was organize, I think truth would have been more appropriate. Maybe, in conclusion, I can have 2 words. One to start the year to motivate and encourage myself and then one to reflect on.